Illusions of Control
Do I at least get to choose when I die?
Or did that already happen…
when my innocence was taken,
when my last hope for control
was told to:
“stop ruining the moment.”
I used to eat Chick-Fil-A and Cane’s Every Day. Now I make vegan protein toast for breakfast.
Growth takes time, and grace. 8… even 5 years ago, I was grabbing Chick-fil-A for breakfast every single day and eating out for lunch every single day. Cooking felt overwhelming, stressful, not for me. And now? I’m finding peace in making breakfasts like this—without stress, without anxiety, coming up with ideas on my own. This […]
Week of 3/25
Emotionally exhausted these couple weeks since my dad’s death-versary was this weekend. I feel lots of gratitude.
BIG ECLIPSE ENERGY week of 4/8
It felt like being on summer break with some of my most loved ones. I felt blessed to witness such a historical moment with these people.
Week of April 1
Kayaking was beautiful, of all things my dad taught me I wish I ACTUALLY listened to him telling us how to kayak. I felt extra sad and sad in a diff way. With this new season greeting of warm days and outdoor activities. I am thinking more about things my family used to do […]
Week of 3/18/24 This is a man’s world, and if a mediocre white would do it, you can too.
They would say they presented a presentation they barely contributed to They would say they made double at their last job They would ask for more money They would get a $200k salary for a senior mgmt job, with only 3 years of experience. They would get 180k their first year out of school […]
helping my dad go to the bathroom
Whenever I happen to use a handicap stall in a bathroom (I really try not to) I think of my dad. A memory auto plays in my head. A memory of the time I was driving him around to run errands. He needed to go to the bathroom. He told me he could make it […]